Sunday, January 22, 2012

Reading your journal....it's a dangerous thing!

Oh my! The thing about blogging or keeping a journal is that you can go back and read what you have written. That is a dangerous thing!!  I don't know how to describe how I am feeling after reading a few I wrote when I started this blog.  Should I cry and be depressed for all the things I thought would have happened by now, (like our addition and being better off financially) or should I laugh hysterically because I thought that!! A while ago I went through and read my journal that I wrote in when I was a young girl. I was amazed at what I read. I must say, I did not like what I had read. I never thought that I was a depressing person, but after reading my journal, I came away feeling so sorry for that person. Not for what they were going through, but for how depressed they (I) sounded. I must have this need to write when I am feeling down. Note to self; write when you are feeling happy too!!!  I do not want people or who ever if any that read my journal to think that I was a depressed person. The years when I was dating and in college were great! I was so happy and full of life and so close to the spirit, I want to feel that way again!! One good thing, you can look back and see what you have accomplished and what you have taken for granite! I think I will take away from this, is that I should ENJOY what is happening NOW! Its okay to feel depressed or sad, but don't let it take over! Enjoy and appreciate what is good in your life now and look forward to more that will come. yeah, we have had a couple of bad years and we may more to come, but I will try and face it with a positive attitude. Attitude is everything right!!

1 comment:

Jenny said...

wow, I needed to read this again! I need to get this attitude again!